1st entry for 2012... 2011 byk bg memori but i welcomed 2012 dgn hati sgt terbuka...
Recaping 2011, byk antara yang teringin dh tercapai. Macam:
Driving License
I've managed to get my license before raya. Walaupun hanya dpt lps fail exam bukit but its ok.sbb aku rs ade hikmah bile aku kena repeat balik. 1st trial, aku sgt nerves sbb mine was 1st in turn for 3rd bch. Bygkan rs takut tu mcm mane.. Ketaq lutut ms nak tkn minyak, tau2 je bile smpai ats bukit, enjin mati... sir jpj suruh kebelakang balik and repeat it... tapi tak d rezeki thus i failed. Kalau dh fail bukit, parking and pepenjuru tak blh buat,truskan ke driving je la.... alhamdulillah driving aku pass.. habis je hari tu aku trus buat appointment for repeating exam utk bukit, a week after, when it come to my turn utk amek test, the nervousness sgt2 kurg.. almost 60% kurg dr 1st time.. and bile kite tak panik and neves, semue benda kita blh buat... plus thanks to pengajar di driving class yg still bg tip2 akhir, couple minutes before aku test... sgt2 beguna... n paling aku ingt, bile miss jpj siap berborak dgn aku sementara aku tggu giliran nak test parking... she said "dh bc doa ke kak, buat elok2 na" and i wals laughing bile dgr die ckp gitu and jwb "semue doa saya hbs bc dah ni".... And by the end of the day, saya dpt lesen saya!
My Own Car
Saya dpt kereta saya stelah struggle utk mendptkan nye selama 2 - 3 bulan, sangat mencbr tahap kemarahan dan kebengangan but again, Allah dh susun baik2 dh timeline kite sama ada dpt kreta atau tak n lambat or cepat, And i'm very grateful that saya ttp dpt dia. It's Saga Flx. Saya tak rs rendh dri wlpun kreta hanya Saga, biarla org kata ape, duit byr lesen kete and duit bulan kete saye yg byr, bukan diorg pun kan... Tapi..... saya tak pnah lg tgkp gmbr my car tu wpun dh 2-3 bulan dh dpt.. Maybe nnti saye tgkp...
Tukar Handphone
From bese2 ke upgrade skit... tak yah le trg lebih....
2 Years Working
Sape sangka saya dpt bertahan at my 1st and current workplace for 2 years? woahhh!!! rs mcm tak caye dh dua tahun! Saya sorg melayu, len smue cina... Kpada sape2 yg paranoid working with chinesse, tak smuenye stereotype yg mcm kite sangka... It just that the way they work is different from us , tu sbb kdg2 kite susah nak masuk.. Tu je.... Early 6 months working, banyak x dpt tangkap.. Buat ni salah, buat tu tak kena.... Mmg ms tu nak pk bhenti je but i kept pushing my self.... 1 year working, its getting better but stil blank and blur... Now 2 years, I could adapt with my bz schedule, dpt siapkan task, tau cr nak handle problem cume tang nak design tu kna asah lg.. tak sampai piawaian... hihihi....Next mission, adekah saya mampu bertahan sehingga 5 years, utk mencapai kelayakn mcm senior 'junior' designer? eceh...berangan ye!
Now 2012 dah 16 hari dh, and 16 hari tu jugak im trying to change myself to better me.
Alhamdulillah, saya sedikit sebanyak dh berhijrah, im no longer free hair.. Im wearing hijab now.... wpun msih baru tapi sangat bersyukur, perasaan? ....... tenang & feel secure..... plus happy bile tgk parent and adik2 sgt2 suka and supportive.. Dan dgn memakainya ade perubahan dlm diri sendiri, tak dpt digambar dgn kata2....
Terima kasih ALLAH, membuka hatiku.. Dan smoga Kau tidak menarik balik hidayah mu ini... Amin....
Untuk 2012, tiada azam ditetapkan. X ade special misi yg nak dicapai... because i believe, setiap hari ada cabarnnye, ade misi yg occur and need to be solve. Just doing my very best to settle it up for myself and family utk better tomorrow. Good things will come after berusaha and dgn keizinan Allah, and kita sbgai hamba, jgn lupakan Dia dan sentiasa dkt dgn-Nya, Insyaallah....
